I’ve been wanting to say something for a while. I think I’ve slowly gotten over K-Pop. I was looking forward to SNSD and 2NE1‘s comeback, and I do pay a bit of attention to the senior groups, but in general…it’s like I woke up one day and found out that I’m not interested anymore. Maybe I feel disappointed about something? I’m not sure.
The music doesn’t catch my attention as much anymore, I feel bored watching an MV, the stars look like normal people…normal people that only associate themselves with people that are like them, or that they knew from before.
I feel a great sense of disconnection, and I can’t explain it very well, ’cause it’s more of a feeling than a thought. I’m still surprised that I’ve been a fan of a person, or had someone as my ultimate bias, for two years as well.
The only reason I stuck around, despite the fact that there may have been a few things about my bias that may have not gotten on my positive side, is ’cause some things that turned into reality starting from EXO‘s teaser era seemed strange to me… including some of my dreams.
However, what if these very same things are leading me into some kind of black hole? EXO is the sole reason I started blogging again, but now I’m starting to think that I should step back for a while.
I guess when I get excited about something, there’s a sudden burst of energy, but then when I start to feel like something that I’m doing is useless, I get tired and start to re-evaluate what’s going on. I mentioned this about myself in a post a long time ago.
Maybe I’ve just gotten tired of being a fan… I’m also a tad-bit upset by one of the “behind-the-scenes facts” of Kris‘ childhood friend thinking of fans as greedy. I know that we should take these sort of “facts” with a grain of salt, but just in case this is true… I have to mention that the greedy ones aren’t the fans, but the ones that are making money out of fans. Think about the one whose goal is profit.
What fans do is something that they do out of love… and it’s this love that gets used by K-Pop companies for the purpose of generating profit. I admit that I’m not happy with it. I am human, not a person with a $ sign, and neither are any of the other fans.
P.S. It’s okay if I lose followers for this post (it only indicates that some people were more interested in me talking about Kris/EXO than actually interested in me as a person…that’s what I realized since long ago as a blogger, so I don’t take it to heart). If you put yourself in my shoes, you would see things differently, though. There are some things that you would be surprised to discover (please note that I don’t hate any K-Pop group or a specific member of a group…they’re just doing what they’re told. This is simply my take on K-Pop’s role as a business).